Title (as given to the record by the creator): Outcast Dykes
Date(s) of creation: Issue 5: April 1996
Creator / author / publisher: eMRobinson, FaT GiRL
Physical description: page includes text of a poem
Reference #: FG5-059
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She said, “Love me, love my thighs.”
Her soft and wrinkly rounded, sagging
thighs are filled with butter fat–the sweet cream
that rises to the surface.
I can take hold of them easily
and cushion my head as I sink into her.
I said, “I will love your thighs.
They are just like mine. But with me
comes my belly.”
She thinks about how it overflows,
folding against itself, rolling under my clothes.
It’s pale, doughy and heavy,
clumsily moveable and poorly hidden.
When she seeks, she finds
and finds and finds.
She said, “I will love your belly.
It’s just like mine. But promise me
you won’t laugh at my arms.”
And I said, “Promise me you won’t criticize
my double chin.”
How can we criticize each other
for the same faults? the same obvious defects?
Fat is bad at hiding. It prefers to be noticed,
taunting thin bodies with malnourished minds
to throw sharp darts, as if we can be deflated,
as if we should be deflated,
as if we owe them gratitude for humiliation.
Not everyone needs to count their ounces
of body fat on one hand or even two.
But in our likeness, the outcast sameness,
we struggle with acceptance of ourselves.
I can love her thighs more easily
than I can love my own.
So we work at loving ourselves
while our soft bodies comfortably melt together,
(and a half).
Although, our four breasts are equal to the weight
of ten. That’s more to enjoy for each of us,
FaT GiRL #5 Pages
- FaT GiRL #5 Front Cover
- FaT GiRL #5 Contents
- Fat Girl Letters
- Oso’s First Official FaT GiRL Word Find
- Botero and Us
- Actions: Avengers Eat Out
- Max’s Rant
- Sexuality Roundtable
- Survey: How does being fat affect your sexuality?
- The Trick
- Poetry: Posturing
- Poetry: Clean Satisfaction
- Blind Alleys
- Drawings by Megaera
- Stories: Worshipping
- Stories: Lesson #1
- Poetry: On Your Knees
- Survey: How have your lovers responded to your body size?
- No One’s Getting Fat Except Mama Cass
- Story: Untitled
- Review: The Invisible Woman
- The Kitchen Slut presents: Sweets for the Salty
- Health Report: Sleep Apnea
- Survey: What do you do to promote positive feelings about your body?
- Poetry: Romancing the Bones
- Poetry: Outcast Dykes
- Go for a ride with FaT GiRL
- FaT GiRL #5 Back Cover