Poetry: Poison

Title:  Poison
Date(s) of creation: October, 1994
Creator / author / publisher: Selena, FaT GiRL
Physical description: Zine page printed in black and white
Reference #: FG1-012-Poison
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From FaT GiRL #1, October, 1994

By Selena

Image Description:

A gray background of a face shadowed with mesh. Black text reads:

Poison.

The crucial fact is that I was poisoned. 

Every time I puked I tried 

to retch it up,

each day without eating I knew 

I didn’t feed the crawling sickness in my bones. 

From the place above my head 

where I escaped like dammed water 

it was all clear; 

with enough blood lost I would be weak enough 

to be protected. 

My body was forgotten 

as poison choked me out of my skull, 

blood was real, 

blood was creation, 

the animation of life in a corpse, 

proof of my inhabitance of skin. 

If I were a church 

my central miracle 

would be the reluctance of bones 

to release me. 

For blood has its own doctrines, and preserved me. 

-Selena